Life is upside down after loss. Nothing feels the same. The things that brought me joy now bring sadness. Finding my footing in this upside down world has not been easy but I am learning. I find the joy through sadness for the times we had together. I am learning that what I worried about before is trivial. I gained the strength to walk again, upside down, with true friends who walk with you through the pitfalls and triggers. Day by day, I continue to find my way in this topsy turvy world in the after. New joy in self care and appreciation for the opportunity to spend time with the ones I love. Man, I miss this little man so much it hurts.